See

Your eyes are open,
Green as the tepid sea,
Your heart beats soundly,
But it don't beat free,

You can't be told,
No you can't be shown,
You're so independent,
Gotta learn on your own.

I can't show you,
But I can know you,
I can't show you,
But I can hope you,

See

If it's true what they say,
That seeing is believing,
Then it's true what I say,
That I just can't be leaving.

You can be shown,
But you can't let it show,
You can be told,
But you can't let it show.

You see

Strong and Independent,
To almost a fault,
Weak and Independent,
Soul like a vault.

You can lean on,
But can't stay too long,
You can lean on,
But your pride is too strong

You'll see

You can self destruct,
Clear a path to nothing,
Blow it all up,
Hope whats left there is something,

You can move on,
But you can't move away,
You can move on,
But for some reason you stay.

You see

Fiercely prideful,
Compromise can lack,
Fiercely stoic,
With a wall against your back,

You can fight on,
But there's nothing to fight,
You can fight on,
In the end I hope you might,

See

Trust

I wait...

I want to pull away your fears,

Fight away your demons,

Discard your insecurities,

Help you trust me the way I do you

I want to take your words away,

Make you feel as though I care,

Watch as your lips move, 

And words fail to come out.

I want to watch your breath escape you,

make you feel breathless,

Help you float on air,

Because you're drifting away in emotion.

Mostly I want to see you smile,

Hand you elation,

Gift you a source of happiness,

As that would make my day too.

I want to help you believe,

I want to show you the way,

Give you hope,

Inspire you...

I cannot do anything more,

Nothing but what I am now,

Sit here, Wait here, Think here,

Hope that at some point...

I can fulfill all of my dreams,

and all of yours...

Until then I wait...

Until then I wait...

Confusion

If you told me how you felt every day...
I'd be unsettled...
If you didn't hide from what scares you...
I'd be unsettled...
If you didn't listen to every voice to come across your ears...
I'd be unsettled...

You have your flaws...
I have mine...

If I hid my thoughts and feelings every day...
You'd be unsettled...
If I didn't always tell you what scares me...
You'd be unsettled...
If I didn't defy everything I've ever been told...
You'd be unsettled...

I have my flaws...
You have yours...

If you weren't who you are,
I wouldn't want you...

If I wasn't who I am,
You wouldn't want me...

A princess...
A hopeless romantic...

Fearful...
Fearless...

Young and confused...
Mature and steadfast...

Hot,
Cold,

Ying,
Yang,

Balanced...
Balanced...

Two flawed individuals,
One solid foundation.

It was unfinished being built,
It is unfinished in it's undoing.

It is perfect,
It is flawed.

It was us,
It is us,
It could be us.

Perfectly imperfect...

How long must I wait...

The phone rings,
and I jump...
It's not the sound that beckons to me,
It's not you...
Yet I still get antsy,
Excited,
Heart races,
Then slows to sluggish...

How long must I wait?

It's not about current silence,
I've the patience equipped,
It's not today, or tomorrow,
It's the bigger picture...
For you to see it...
See me...
Beyond the few flaws...
To grow...

How long must I wait?

I can't be perfect,
but I can be for you...
to show you a near perfect life...
Nothing more to promise,
Nothing more than everything,
Not a lifetime...
Just a life...

How long must I wait?

To shed the confusion,
To get past the doubt,
To open it up,
Press the gas,
Ditch the brake,
Use the clutch,
Shift to 5...

How long must I wait?

Time ticks,
Like a metronome of life,
Tick
Tick
Tick
The sound numbs my mind,
Working on my soul,
My heart unfazed,
The rest screaming...

How long must I wait?

Tick
Tick
Tick
My heart laughs,
Yelling with indignation,
It doesn't matter
Tick
I don't care
Tick
I won't relent
Tick

How long must I wait?

Tick
Tick
Tick
I'm still here
Beat
Tick
Beat
Tick
My heart plays to the same rhythm,
playing a song...
a song titled...

How long must I wait?

Getting to the chorus,
Getting to the second verse,
Suddenly the mind screams out loud
Encore!!
Tick
Beat
Tick
Beat
Time passes, to the beat of this song

How long must I wait?

In the excitement,
In the music,
The mind hears the answer
The soul reverberates

How long must I wait?

It all seems so clear now,
How could they not agree?

How long must I wait?

The answer is this:
As long as I have to

I must wait

because the song isn't finished,
It is stuck in its chorus,
It needs an ending,
Happy
Melodious
The tune that sings

How long must I wait?

Baby we're here

Baby we're here but we don't know why,
There's been days so long..
So tough...
We've admittedly cried,

We've been here together,
We've been here apart,
We're here now together,
So where do we start?

The past is the past,
The future be what it may,

There's nothing to predict,
Though we may try,
It only becomes habit,
To ask why not, or why

You'll live your way,
I'll live mine,
There's zero doubt,
We'll both end up fine,

Whether we take a shot,
Or whether we run,
What lives inside of us,
Will never be done.

Can we be stronger?
Can we be brave?
Can we stand above it all?
No longer be slave?

To all that we're told...
To all that is said...
To all that there was...
That that "this" is dead...

Some things have changed,
And others have not,
We could focus on what we haven't,
But should see what we've got...

Hearts skipping beats,
Smiles running amok,
Fun isn't lacking,
Together we've luck.

So be unafraid,
at the feelings we feel,
Cuz baby we're here,
Those feelings are real.

The shades of pink...

There's many shades of the color pink...
These shades are various...
These shades make me think...

They show me all that i've ever seen...
They show me all that i've ever known...
They explain my inert feelings...
Exemplify everything you've ever shown...

From fuchsia...to rose
From ruby...to fandango

The classic pink...is what every person sees...
Classic...
Original...
Plain as can be...it is the side you show the world

Amaranth...is so bold...
Vibrant...
Warm...
It is as unique as pink gets... it is your side that is rare to EVERYone

Magenta...is commonly heard of...
Bright...
Popping...
It is common yet obscure... it is your side that I get to see

There are many shades of the color pink...
They make their own rainbow...
Pink is your favorite...

You...
You are mine...

Passionate flames...

There's a fire deep inside of me,
And you are the match struck so firm,
The spark, the ignition, the sliver of flame,
That ignited this inferno.

You're the gas that keeps it going,
The fuel that keeps it lit,
The oxygen the flame needs to breath,
That keeps this torch aflame.

Passion, not lust,
Knowledge, not curiosity,
Faith, however not blind,
Emotion, more than thoughts.

This fire can burn a man alive,
Set his heart aflame,
Singe his every rational thought,
Erupt his soulful pain,

All from a spark,
A simple little thing,
Which set in the right place,
Can cause a man to burn again.

These passionate flames,
licking at the soul,
All because of your ignition,
That made this man whole...

I hugged someone else today...

I hugged someone else today,
It simply couldn't do,
It helped her in a time of need,
It felt plain as could be,
The problem....it wasn't you.

I hugged someone else today,
It just wasn't the same,
The tone was different,
The smell wrong,
Not even the right name.

I hugged someone else today,
But not for reasons I could hide,
Coughed up emotions,
Spoke a lot of missing you,
I may have even cried.

I hugged someone else today,
The feelings just weren't there,
No warmth,
No solace,
Only misplaced care.

I hugged someone else today,
I feel like I acted,
She was in need,
and desperate,
But my mind, my heart, were distracted.

I hugged someone else today,
It was useless to do,
My heart, my mind,
All my emotions,
Are still here with you

I hugged someone else today,
To be a helping friend,
I thought only of you,
Coming back to me,
I just wanted it to end...

Untitled

Why can't you slow down?
What do you think you'll miss?

Life is unpredictable,
But isn't so fleeting...
So fleeting that you need to run,
To hold your breath,
As you sprint through the rose beds

I realize
A sluggish pace can lead to boredom,
But,
A lighting pace can lead to missing out...

On smiles,
On laughs,
On pain,
On sadness,
On everything,
On anything...
All of the things that lead to the big picture

Working so hard just to make the future better,
What of the memories you may never create?
What of the life you deserve?
What if you pass it by?
Instead of it passing you by?

So why can't you slow down?
What do you think you'll miss?

Call Me Tonight

Call me tonight,
If you can't lie next to me,
Call me tonight,
If we cannot hold each other,
Call me tonight,
So your voice is the last thing I hear

I've missed your embrace...
Unless you are here
I've missed the satin like feel of your lips...
Unless you are here
I even miss the way you give me sass...
Unless you are here

I love your hugs,
I love your kisses,
I love the way you play...

But it if wasn't today...
I miss you

So call me tonight,
If you can't lie next to me,
and call me tonight,
If we cannot hold each other,
but call me tonight,
So your voice is the last thing I hear

Please call me tonight,
Because without you here...
I missed you today

What is The Difference?

So many people,

With so much to say,

They can't see us,

The way I do,

The way you do.

It's too easy to write it off,

To go with conventional thought,

Life is filled with societal expectations,

They are not mine,

They are not yours.

So many words can be heard in the shadows,

Weird,

Wrong,

Unnatural,

Inappropriate.

So many opinions,

So many beliefs,

So many thoughts,

I do not have them,

You do not have them.

There's only one reason,

Only one doubt,

There's only one critique,

It is not mine,

It may sometimes be yours.

Life should be measured in moments,

Not by years,

The quality of experiences not the quantity,

The quality of mine,

The quality of yours.

This will create struggles,

This will create doubts,

This will create questions,

I know they are mine,

I know they are yours.

The number of years that separate,

Are seemingly great by the numbers,

The emotions that validate this,

These are mine,

These are yours.

So when the questions start to come,

When the doubts creep in,

When the naysayers chime in,

There is only one answer,

One sentiment to share.

THIS is not yours,

THIS is ours.

So what is the problem?

So why do you care?

What if this was yours?

What is the difference?

The difference is simple,

It is not an answer based on arithmetic,

It is pure qualitative data,

The difference is honest, pure, and straight forward...

THIS is ours...

THIS is not yours...

There is no difference

Your Trust Is My Treasure

I'll always try to do the right thing,
Success can never be 100%,
I'll always try to do my best,
I will fail sometimes,
I need you to know...

Your trust is my treasure

You'll tell me things in confidence,
I'll listen with purest of intent,
I might slip sometimes,
Not because I know something,
But because it could help...

Your trust is my treasure

You may find your faith wavering,
You might fear you've invested poorly,
I'd assure you otherwise,
I desire what you give,
I want to hold it dear...

Your trust is my treasure

Your heart is right,
Your head would disagree,
I'd never do anything to side with your mind,
Circumstances shouldn't always dictate,
When intentions are so pure...

Your trust is my treasure

I've seen the consequences of creeping doubts,
I've given you some doubt,
I'll fight until i'm broken and bleeding,
Climb your ivory walls,
To regain or continue to gain what I cherish...

Your trust is my treasure

I vow to make the changes,
I promise to prove myself right,
I'll earn what it is I deserve,
I'll strive to show, not tell
Because in the end...

Your trust is my treasure

The windows to my soul...they are open...

The first time you looked me in the eyes,
I could not hold your gaze,
The insecurity of that intimate connection,
Froze all but my darting eyes.

The power you held when you locked in,
the insurmountable discomfort,
Pushed my looks away,
Scared my eyes away after only 10 seconds.

As days have turned to weeks, and then to months,
10 seconds have become 20, and then 30.
Discomfort to curiosity to intrigue,
Flirtatiously playing with emotional fire.

A moments glance has become an endearing gaze,
Your eyes have become my favorite show,
The changes in emotion that is displayed in each of us,
The mood as they shift colors, shows in your very eyes.

20 seconds has become 2...maybe 3 minutes..
Playing chicken, with our eyes....with our hearts
Now every time you look me in the eyes,
I cannot... I'm unwilling...to break your gaze.

I’ve never seen myself the way I do with you…

I’ve lived through a thousand insecurities,

A million unsure thoughts,

I’ve considered myself useless,

Believed myself weak

And I’ve never seen myself the way I do with you…

I’ve been given reasons to doubt,

Been told I’ve had very little worth,

I’ve been put down,

And belittled.

But I’ve never seen myself the way I do with you…

And then you came along …

You’ve told me I’m amazing,

Said that I’m so sweet,

Believe me to be capable,

Tested me, and really seen me,

I’ve never seen myself the way I do with you…

You’ve believed in me at my weakest,

Stuck by me when we both were at our limit,

Relieved me of pain, when I was nearly crippled,

All because you truly care about me.

I’ve never seen myself the way I do with you…

You’ve grown within “this”,

Claiming it is me that has given you comfort,

Using amazing as your word of choice,

You’ve given me reasons to believe,

In you,

In us,

In “this”,

But most of all in me.

I’ve never seen myself the way I do with you,

I see myself as strong,

I see myself as caring,

I see myself as able,

I see myself as right.

For you,

For us,

For “this”,

But most of all for me.

All of these things were always in me,

I needed a reason to believe,

I needed an opportunity to prove,

I needed an incredible person to show me,

I’ve never seen myself the way I do with you,

The reason this works,

The reason if feels right,

The reason you are so effective,

The reason this is…

Is not because I NEEDED you…

Or even because I NEED you at all…

It is because you are all I’ve ever wanted…

And want is reciprocated by you…

So it is because of your desire,

For seeing the real me inside,

For believing in my strengths,

And accepting my weaknesses

You’re amazing in a million ways,

You’ve shown me your own true strength,

You’ve expressed true beauty in your humanity,

You’ve do so many things…

For you,

For us,

For “this”

And unlike anyone before,

For me.

For all of these reasons

And many more,

It is because of you,

That I see myself the way I do…

The Princess of Hearts

I want to see your smile every day...

Because in a photo,
Because in person,
Because in my mind's eye,

It warms my heart

I want to feel your hug every day...

Because in the cold,
Because on a bad day,
Because just because,

It fills my heart

I want to kiss your lips every day...

Because in my dreams,
Because at a stop light,
Because why not,

It speeds up my heart

I want to hold your hand every day...

Because it's funner,
Because it is so simple,
Because it feels right,

It calms my heart

I want to gaze into your eyes every day...

Because I get lost in them,
Because they sparkle like the stars at night,
Because they open to your soul

It speaks to my heart

I want to hear from your heart every day...

Because it may have so much to say,
Because it's voice is so often soft,
Because it's most important

It's important to my heart


My heart... enjoys you... it enjoys yours...