My Mind

I'm sorry
Not for what you think,

I'm sorry,
For what I know,

I'm sorry
For being weak,

I'm sorry,
For lying, not to you, but me

I'm sorry,
For being delusional

I'm sorry,
For feeling unusual

I'm sorry
I say it a lot

I'm sorry
I don't want to be wrong

I'm sorry
For hedging my bets

I'm sorry
For not knowing me before introducing me

I'm sorry
For waiting so long

I'm sorry
For not waiting long enough

I'm sorry
Because in this brain, I'd rather not

I'm sorry
Because, I had to anyway

I'm sorry
For wasting your time

I'm sorry
For wasting my time

I'm sorry
Not for now

I'm sorry
But for then

I'm sorry
For not holding on

I'm sorry
For holding on too tight

I'm sorry
For being afraid

I'm sorry
For not being capable of trust

I'm sorry
For only being this

I'm sorry
For not being more

I'm sorry
For not being better

I'm sorry
For not being the best

I'm sorry
I can't try any more

I'm sorry
I'm changing course

I'm sorry
For leaning into discomfort

I'm sorry
For seeking out myself

I'm sorry
For being sorry

I'm thinking
Hard about myself

I'm thinking
Hard about you

I'm thinking
About the past

I'm thinking
About the future

I'm thinking
About what I want

I'm thinking
I've had this coming

I'm thinking
13 years was too long

I'm thinking
I owe it to myself

I'm thinking
I owe it to you

I'm not sorry
That I'm not perfect

I'm not sorry
That I'm unique

I'm not sorry
That I have issues

I'm not sorry
That I need help sometimes

I'm not sorry
Because my heart is true

I'm not sorry
Because my brain is catching up

I'm not sorry
Because conflict leads to growth

I'm not sorry
Because today can be different

I'm not sorry
Because a whole life is waiting to be lived

I believe
I am worthy

I believe
You are too

I believe
In happiness

I believe
I can accept it

I believe
In our beauty

I believe
In so much

I believe
Because I've dodged belief so much

I believe,
Because, thats all I can do

I believe,
in me
And
I believe...

In you