Forbidden..

I try so hard to stay away,
Go so far as to try to forget you, for even a moment,
It doesn't matter because you still haunt my dreams,
You're unforgettable,
You are forbidden

I fight every yearning,
Refuse to touch your skin,
It doesn't matter because in the end, you're like a magnet,
You're an ultimate attraction,
You are forbidden

I try not to say what is on my mind,
Paint every word as though it's innocent,
It doesn't matter because i feel exposed towards you
You're a vacuum for my hidden interior,
You are forbidden

I try to be accommodating,
Hesitantly, I understand that your heart is elsewhere,
It doesn't matter because I abandon what I have always been,
You're a commanding force,
You are forbidden

I disappear when I am with you,
Enter a space so warm, so safe, so happy,
It doesn't matter because I must always return at some point,
You're a portal, a threshold,
You are forbidden

Within myself I fight to stay strong,
Try to pretend to hold on to who I used to be,
It doesn't matter because I feel something I never have,
You're a captivating being, unworldly as you are,
You are forbidden

In the end, we both can agree,
Something magical and more exists,
We cannot say it doesn't matter,
It is an addiction, it is real, and it is special,
However,
It is forbidden