Outspoken

Its funny how outspoken one can be,
Mainly my references are in regards to me,
Allowing myself to be over run by what I feel,
Unhappy til those opposing go from stand to kneel,
Platform, soapbox, or just plain unrehearsed speeches,
Arguments suck at souls like those of unfed leeches,
Always right, increasingly never wrong,
Memorizing theories, and ideas like a favorite song.
The weights and burdens of wanting to be correct,
Pushes people away as one might expect.

Forever seeking to pursue ultimate causes,
Unable to calculate the inevitable losses,
So long as the world can become greater,
I’ve put my goals and desires off until later.

NO MORE

I've felt the pain and the searing sting,
From feeling responsible for every little thing,
Allowing myself to be the absolute one,
To make sure the corrections are always getting done,
Feeling like I'm the only one that ever dares,
When really I'm the only one that even really cares.

I'M DONE

I'll make myself available for education,
Also the occasional salutation,
However the problems of the world are their own,
Those who change them, I surely condone,
But these are not my problems a minute longer,
Focusing on myself, will be what makes me stronger,
Selfish and petty and potentially a worldly loss,
It is necessary to avoid the undesirable costs.
I've paid with my soul, and pieces of my heart,
Hence my desire, my pleas, for a brand new start.

START ANEW

Constructively criticized,
Outspokenly ostracized,
These demons are exorcised,
My reactions are paralyzed,

Things will work and we will all comprehend,
Changes when needed are made in the end,
Allow for these words, and take them as a token,
I'll remain controlled, no longer outspoken.